I just posted about how I miss my Jeep.  The story of how I bought my Jeep is rather typical of my shopping behavior.  See, when I am depressed I self medicate with a nice little shopping trip.  Usually it’s just a few hundred dollars worth of clothing, but once I was really sad and went shopping and came home with a brand new Jeep Wrangler.

I broke up with the only man I have ever loved after just a few months of a wonderful dating experience.  I met a friend of a friend one December and we hit it off.  She went to bed and left the two of us watching TV and talking.  One thing led to another and we started kissing.  Finally I had to go home but we made plans to see each other.  Things went well and moved rather quickly.  We dated for about 5 months maybe a little less.  But time was not an issue.  Within a couple of months I knew I had fallen in love with Chase.

I did something very stupid in the late winter/early spring and I broke up with Chase.  Not because I did not love him.  Not because I didn’t want to spend time with him or be around him.  Not for anything he had done or said.  The problem was that I was in the closet and we had reached a point in our relationship where I had to leave the closet.  He was not trying to force me out or anything.  I just knew I would have to come out because I could not live the lie at work or with my family and friends.  I really wanted to come out but the fear was too strong and instead I ended my relationship with Chase.  It was my choice and I regret it to this day.  It was sad, hard, and difficult, and I have never dated anyone else that I haven’t fallen in love with anyone else to this day.

Anyway, I was very sad and rather depressed.  After all I just broke it off with the only man I ever loved and I knew time would take Chase out of my life.  So, how do you make yourself feel better that you’re closeted, stupid, love sick, moron?  You buy yourself a little happy.  When I left my apartment that day I was not heading out looking for a new car.  Sure, I knew I wanted a Jeep Wrangler some day.  But somehow I ended up at a Jeep dealership and when I left I left in a brand new black Jeep Wrangler.  So instead of spending a few hundred dollars on clothes to cheer me up I spent $10,000 on a new car.  I kept that Jeep for 8 years, the longest I ever had any vehicle and I loved it and wish I would have gotten another when I got my last car.  I’m sure my next one will be Jeep Wrangler.