Forgiveness
I never thought this would happen but I have actually forgiven someone that did me seriously wrong. I guess that time does heal just about everything. There are a couple players in this story, Mike 2 and Stewart.
Mike 2 I had known for years, we were casual friends. He is really good friends with Skot and Mike which is how I met Mike 2. I worked with Stewart and he was a friend and ended up renting a room from me for a shot time.
Anyway, I think I was manipulated by Steward and lead on. He would say things to me in private and in front of Skot which lead me to believe he and I could date or have some type of future together. He know I was totally crushing on him. Anyway, Skot, Mike, Stewart and I went to Busch Gardens in Tampa and Mike 2 met us there. Mike 2 is a fun and nice guy but a total man whore. I admire his man whoreness because I can't be a man whore even when I try. He wanted Stewart and asked if there would be a problem. Well, I said there would be, Skot told him there would be but he did it anyway. And he got what he wanted.
This was very hurtful to me. Mike 2 knew how I felt and Stewart knew how I felt. I knew Mike 2 was just going to sleep with him for a couple of weeks and then move on to his next like he always does. Anyway this is what happened but it caused lots of problems and hurt feelings.
I swore I would never forgive Mike 2. A couple years went by and I avoided him and would not have a conversation with him when I saw him. I was so hurt and angry. Anyway, a few weeks ago I actually got over the entire thing. I did not think it could or would ever happen. I was hurt so deeply and I can be stubborn when it comes to stupid crap like this. Anyway, Steward moved to DC and am I friends with Mike 2 again and yes, I forgive him and myself.
Mike 2 I had known for years, we were casual friends. He is really good friends with Skot and Mike which is how I met Mike 2. I worked with Stewart and he was a friend and ended up renting a room from me for a shot time.
Anyway, I think I was manipulated by Steward and lead on. He would say things to me in private and in front of Skot which lead me to believe he and I could date or have some type of future together. He know I was totally crushing on him. Anyway, Skot, Mike, Stewart and I went to Busch Gardens in Tampa and Mike 2 met us there. Mike 2 is a fun and nice guy but a total man whore. I admire his man whoreness because I can't be a man whore even when I try. He wanted Stewart and asked if there would be a problem. Well, I said there would be, Skot told him there would be but he did it anyway. And he got what he wanted.
This was very hurtful to me. Mike 2 knew how I felt and Stewart knew how I felt. I knew Mike 2 was just going to sleep with him for a couple of weeks and then move on to his next like he always does. Anyway this is what happened but it caused lots of problems and hurt feelings.
I swore I would never forgive Mike 2. A couple years went by and I avoided him and would not have a conversation with him when I saw him. I was so hurt and angry. Anyway, a few weeks ago I actually got over the entire thing. I did not think it could or would ever happen. I was hurt so deeply and I can be stubborn when it comes to stupid crap like this. Anyway, Steward moved to DC and am I friends with Mike 2 again and yes, I forgive him and myself.


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